Friday, December 11, 2009

i want to write yet not really.
i want to feel better but doesnt know how to.
so now i find myself blogging.

i mean, i know i shouldnt have i know it was wrong for me to like him since i dont know him and you guys do and the fact that its a thousand miles away from here.
but i didnt expect it to be like that. i was actually trying to be careful.
and i will take responsibility for this.
i dont want our friendship to ruin this.
i dont want to end up like the tornado. as much as possible just let me face it myself and dont rub it on my face. because it only makes it worse.

i somehow doesnt get the point of you guys getting mad at me or something i mean i understand why but it really wont make things better. i know you guys are trying to make a point to me and i love you guys.

i mean we've all been in this kind of state right?
i really dont know what i am saying right now. i'm upset, confused, happy yet not.
i am insane as always.
i really shouldnt have ruined people's mood today.
that was really reckless of me.

i shouldnt have said or brought my emotions that will cost everyone to be in a bad mood.
I AM SORRY. TO ALL OF YOU GUYS.

i'll do this alone and figure it out.
i'm only 16 after all ;D
there's tons of guys lurking around. ;D

anyway, this is making me feel better ;D
its a good thing right?
yeah i know.

i think i know what went wrong. i have to stand up and be strong and actually accept things that are hard to accept. face my fears and i'd do fine. ;D

I LOVE ALL MY FRIENDS.