Wednesday, August 4, 2010
Who Am I?
Who Am I?
I love to love
I love to be love
I love to think of him
I love to kiss him
I love the kiss in the rain
I love everything else around him...
But there is one thing that I do not understand at all.
Who Am I to him?
Am i a lover?
A friend?
or am I just an ordinary person, just like everyone else?
I love him to the point where I can forget who I am
But is he willing to give up everything for me?
Is he willing to admit that he has his eyes fixated on me?
As I thought, he and I are soul mates.
Funny, because he is my very first, friend
And he will be my very last lover.
I love you.
Always keep me in your heart. I'll make sure that it will only beat for me.
I'll make everything hot for you.
because that is how much I love you.
I love to love
I love to be love
I love to think of him
I love to kiss him
I love the kiss in the rain
I love everything else around him...
But there is one thing that I do not understand at all.
Who Am I to him?
Am i a lover?
A friend?
or am I just an ordinary person, just like everyone else?
I love him to the point where I can forget who I am
But is he willing to give up everything for me?
Is he willing to admit that he has his eyes fixated on me?
As I thought, he and I are soul mates.
Funny, because he is my very first, friend
And he will be my very last lover.
I love you.
Always keep me in your heart. I'll make sure that it will only beat for me.
I'll make everything hot for you.
because that is how much I love you.
our love lingers at 2:29 PM
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Monday, May 10, 2010
The Desperation
I have the urge to just fall in love.
I don't know why... but I just want someone, to hold hands with, fight with, smile and cry with. A guy where I can take off his glass and ran away with it. A guy who is willing to hang out in my house for as long as he can gain my parents out.
I want a guy who is IMPERFECT. Who makes mistakes, who gets sad and gets mad. A guy that cannot do everything, so then I can have the chance to help him. A guy who gets jealous but not too much. A guy who is romantic inside but afraid to show it. A guy who will be mean to me but not to the point where he will hurt my feelings.
A guy who will blush just by saying cheezy things that he doesnt want to say to me. A guy who will never be ashamed of me and a guy who can tolerate me but not really.
The guy that i want to love is not perfect but perfectly imperfect for me. I wish to find him some time, or maybe in a week or so ;] I will love him for as long as I can.
our love lingers at 5:36 PM
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Friday, April 9, 2010
Parting Time.
This is totally making me want to cry! I love my friends. And they will always be in my heart.
Hmmmmm. I will totally miss them! ;(
our love lingers at 4:28 PM
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Wednesday, April 7, 2010
Paint It Black
Hmm, I know that the title is Paint It Black. Anyway, it is actually a song from Within Temptation.
Moving on, I am just literally bored since Cheroo will not be on the bus at all. Quite sad but I guess i just have to deal with it.
and and and and I HAVE NO SCHOOL TOMORROW.
YEAH, I AM JUST HAPPY.
The Aspiring Quintessence~
Moving on, I am just literally bored since Cheroo will not be on the bus at all. Quite sad but I guess i just have to deal with it.
and and and and I HAVE NO SCHOOL TOMORROW.
YEAH, I AM JUST HAPPY.
The Aspiring Quintessence~
our love lingers at 11:29 AM
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Monday, April 5, 2010
Beside You
Blah.
I love to love you.
And so I have decided to take the risk of falling in love again.
....
...
...
Only this time....
You will be the one to fall in love with me.
I love to love you.
And so I have decided to take the risk of falling in love again.
....
...
...
Only this time....
You will be the one to fall in love with me.
our love lingers at 6:33 PM
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Saturday, April 3, 2010
My Feet Hurts
As of the moment, my feet hurts.
I should put my own insole in my hell shoes.
And and and anyway, I don't exactly know what I should be doing!
But my mother let me on the computer today ;]
Yeay! I know, nothing to be happy about because I barely talk to normal people only the lame ones!
Ugh. That's it for today.
I love you whoever is reading this. ;]
I should put my own insole in my hell shoes.
And and and anyway, I don't exactly know what I should be doing!
But my mother let me on the computer today ;]
Yeay! I know, nothing to be happy about because I barely talk to normal people only the lame ones!
Ugh. That's it for today.
I love you whoever is reading this. ;]
our love lingers at 12:48 PM
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Thursday, April 1, 2010
Suddenly, I want to love you
I have this feeling, this craving for someone. But for some reason, my heart won't allow me to get him. Maybe, because I was not ready for a mature relationship. But I know that someday he will come along in my life and take me as his wife.
Yeah, I just hope he does because if I become a nun I will blame him but not really, because I think I would be happy for whatever choices I made.
Anyway, I am actually picturing myself with a half chinese and half white or chinese filipino. I would not mind. I think I would more likely attach myself to him, as long as he knows how to speak Mandarin and then I'll be fine.
And then maybe me and him can sing a mandarin song..
Ohh yeah,
I forgot.
I was at BR today with Cheroo.
We were just talking about random things and how I would be so unromantic with my bf (If I ever get one) and so cheroo and me fail at the romantic first date kind of thing. Hmm, I think it would be really funny. But probably not for my future bf or me. Anyway, I do not know what else to say it was just that I have not blog for a long time and now that i have inspiration I just could not stop writing.
I love a lot of people.
Like my friends.
Though there are times when it feels like the world is ending. I just hope that we stay strong throughout our lifetime together.
The Aspiring Quintessence~
Yeah, I just hope he does because if I become a nun I will blame him but not really, because I think I would be happy for whatever choices I made.
Anyway, I am actually picturing myself with a half chinese and half white or chinese filipino. I would not mind. I think I would more likely attach myself to him, as long as he knows how to speak Mandarin and then I'll be fine.
And then maybe me and him can sing a mandarin song..
Ohh yeah,
I forgot.
I was at BR today with Cheroo.
We were just talking about random things and how I would be so unromantic with my bf (If I ever get one) and so cheroo and me fail at the romantic first date kind of thing. Hmm, I think it would be really funny. But probably not for my future bf or me. Anyway, I do not know what else to say it was just that I have not blog for a long time and now that i have inspiration I just could not stop writing.
I love a lot of people.
Like my friends.
Though there are times when it feels like the world is ending. I just hope that we stay strong throughout our lifetime together.
The Aspiring Quintessence~
our love lingers at 5:53 PM
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Thursday, February 18, 2010
Wait For You
Is there such thing as 'wait for you'? Because apparently, it feels like that phrase does not exists in this world. As much as I want to wait, I will be the only one waiting. I am crazy enough.. but I don't know. My heart keeps breaking..
How can you break an already broken heart?
>;
How can you break an already broken heart?
>;
our love lingers at 8:38 PM
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Monday, February 15, 2010
Can't help falling in Love
From this day on, I promise that I will try my hardest to back off with these feelings. I must remember and remind myself that falling in love nor hurting someone is not a normal thing to happen.
But I cannot help falling in love--- and so I must take and hold onto that 'someone' [I have no idea of that someone] so I won't be head over heels again.
I love my friends! BTW! Axel and Prince Rox are a hottie xD
And Of course Zexion who is not just ESX. He does not even ESX people =_= He gets attacked! BY MOI!
Okay, Am done.
But I cannot help falling in love--- and so I must take and hold onto that 'someone' [I have no idea of that someone] so I won't be head over heels again.
I love my friends! BTW! Axel and Prince Rox are a hottie xD
And Of course Zexion who is not just ESX. He does not even ESX people =_= He gets attacked! BY MOI!
Okay, Am done.
our love lingers at 4:39 PM
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Second Chance
Not everyone in this world was given a second chance. Just like me, I was not given a second chance. It was because the fact that I may have hurt the person that much or maybe he just totally erased his feelings for me. But either way, I think I have no right to ask for second chance.
At this very moment, I keep thinking of how he felt about me now. To be honest, it was rather lonely for me to think that there will be no more chances left for two people. We were young, I, especially did not know what exactly I was doing. I was stupid and naive. I was too self-centered and obsessed of someone.
I always end up with the wrong guy. As much as I want to make up those mistakes I made in my life, there isn't a way to do that. It would take decades to actually get to that point. Anyway, things are just too late to even begin with. Three years of me roaming around and fooling around. I thought that I actually know what love is, I thought that I already fell in love with someone. It turned out that those thoughts were completely wrong. I was rather hallucinating. I mean I admitted defeat. I knew that I should have been more observant and trusted more of my own feelings than just being a Hopeless Romantic This is one of the disadvantages. I love being in love and so every time I meet a new person/guy I tend to like them all of a sudden not really controlling myself because I like the idea of being in love. It is completely wrong of me and now that i know its own consequences I think I would just think over the things before I make a move or say something that might affect an individual person.
Because the one person that kept popping up in my head has to be erased here in my head. Because I don't want to be unfair anymore.
One last time, I admit that --- I do love him for the past three years and it took me that long, I actually have to go through this stage of getting infatuated before I realize that it has been him all these time. I think I found the last piece to my broken heart.
"I love you." Is what my heart and mind says now. I will no longer be asking for that second chance that I hoped existed in our vocabulary of feelings and forgiving.
At this very moment, I keep thinking of how he felt about me now. To be honest, it was rather lonely for me to think that there will be no more chances left for two people. We were young, I, especially did not know what exactly I was doing. I was stupid and naive. I was too self-centered and obsessed of someone.
I always end up with the wrong guy. As much as I want to make up those mistakes I made in my life, there isn't a way to do that. It would take decades to actually get to that point. Anyway, things are just too late to even begin with. Three years of me roaming around and fooling around. I thought that I actually know what love is, I thought that I already fell in love with someone. It turned out that those thoughts were completely wrong. I was rather hallucinating. I mean I admitted defeat. I knew that I should have been more observant and trusted more of my own feelings than just being a Hopeless Romantic This is one of the disadvantages. I love being in love and so every time I meet a new person/guy I tend to like them all of a sudden not really controlling myself because I like the idea of being in love. It is completely wrong of me and now that i know its own consequences I think I would just think over the things before I make a move or say something that might affect an individual person.
Because the one person that kept popping up in my head has to be erased here in my head. Because I don't want to be unfair anymore.
One last time, I admit that --- I do love him for the past three years and it took me that long, I actually have to go through this stage of getting infatuated before I realize that it has been him all these time. I think I found the last piece to my broken heart.
"I love you." Is what my heart and mind says now. I will no longer be asking for that second chance that I hoped existed in our vocabulary of feelings and forgiving.
our love lingers at 4:25 PM
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Thursday, February 11, 2010
First Kiss
First Kiss is important to every girl that has passion and love in them, I prefer kissing someone who is important, the person i care and the person that my heart accepts and no doubts will ever separate my feelings for that person.
But kissing someone just because they were lonely is so stupid! I mean fine kissing someone sure! but dude, i wouldnt have mind if the guy i kissed will soon be my Boyfriend and i know that there's a chance he would fall in love with me! but a girl whom people are annoyed with and who use a you?? dude, that's stupidity. like seriously, Your passion is like dying because of her! Dx
anyway, i cant do anything about it >>
so, i dont know. things around the two of us will change. I am not as comfortable as before anymmore. i really thought you are a person that knows her own belief apparently i am wrong. Dx
But kissing someone just because they were lonely is so stupid! I mean fine kissing someone sure! but dude, i wouldnt have mind if the guy i kissed will soon be my Boyfriend and i know that there's a chance he would fall in love with me! but a girl whom people are annoyed with and who use a you?? dude, that's stupidity. like seriously, Your passion is like dying because of her! Dx
anyway, i cant do anything about it >>
so, i dont know. things around the two of us will change. I am not as comfortable as before anymmore. i really thought you are a person that knows her own belief apparently i am wrong. Dx
our love lingers at 5:11 PM
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Saturday, February 6, 2010
if only I was given another chance.
To be honest, I really wish I did not go at all. If only I knew what effect it would have on me, I should not have bothered at all.
I get the point that she can get them and I could not. But I am a girl with a class, I came from a respected family. I do not want to disappoint them at all by acting with my impulse. As much as I want her to taste my anger that would only make me act like her.
I do not like being compared to her, I do not like her at all. I do not want to be mean but she is the one making me something or at least as far as I know she is trying to get my bad side out of me. I mean everyone has their good and bad side but there are times where it would be better to just at least let it be.
Actually, last night I thought it would have been the most amazing night in my life or at least in my life now. It turned out to be the opposite. I mean I did have fun with my loving friends and such. But as well know, That bad things are better remarkable than the good memories that we made.
Well, I guess all my friends are aware that I am hopeless romantic but I think that kind of reasoning is not enough. I may sound desperate but I am not. I have always dream of dancing with a man on Semi Formal. I mean I know that there's still PROM. But dancing with a guy on Semi is like a good beginning well for me it isnt. I know too, that we are all the same. You guys feel the same feeling that I do but you guys tend to ignore it. As much as I want to I coudlnt, because it is me. This is part of my life. And before it even started that night I already started on a wrong foot. Not knowing that it was my fault yet it really is not. It's really hard for me to grasped the fact that I do not have a love life or more so someone that I have on my mind. I need my inspiration I need someone, well Not really.
I do not know, I just couldnt ignore the feeling of JEALOUSY! Yes, I admit I am jealous for people who are all sweet with their dates. And my date was my COUSIN like what the pants?/
Anyway, I want to end my rant here Dx
I get the point that she can get them and I could not. But I am a girl with a class, I came from a respected family. I do not want to disappoint them at all by acting with my impulse. As much as I want her to taste my anger that would only make me act like her.
I do not like being compared to her, I do not like her at all. I do not want to be mean but she is the one making me something or at least as far as I know she is trying to get my bad side out of me. I mean everyone has their good and bad side but there are times where it would be better to just at least let it be.
Actually, last night I thought it would have been the most amazing night in my life or at least in my life now. It turned out to be the opposite. I mean I did have fun with my loving friends and such. But as well know, That bad things are better remarkable than the good memories that we made.
Well, I guess all my friends are aware that I am hopeless romantic but I think that kind of reasoning is not enough. I may sound desperate but I am not. I have always dream of dancing with a man on Semi Formal. I mean I know that there's still PROM. But dancing with a guy on Semi is like a good beginning well for me it isnt. I know too, that we are all the same. You guys feel the same feeling that I do but you guys tend to ignore it. As much as I want to I coudlnt, because it is me. This is part of my life. And before it even started that night I already started on a wrong foot. Not knowing that it was my fault yet it really is not. It's really hard for me to grasped the fact that I do not have a love life or more so someone that I have on my mind. I need my inspiration I need someone, well Not really.
I do not know, I just couldnt ignore the feeling of JEALOUSY! Yes, I admit I am jealous for people who are all sweet with their dates. And my date was my COUSIN like what the pants?/
Anyway, I want to end my rant here Dx
our love lingers at 10:45 PM
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Sunday, January 24, 2010
Idiots!
Oh my pants!
I am in the process of being a man hater..
I hate guys!
i hate them with burning passion.
How can guys like you exists?
I mean i dont want to be a hypocrite.. but hell!
dressing up like a fukcing loser..
talking like shoit.
acting like a cool aid..
oh my pants.
i will lessen your population jerks.
And i am ashamed...-i know i have no right but still- that i have guy friends like you.
GUYS IN GENERAL MAKES ME MAD AND SAD.
I hate hate hate hate hate hate hate GUYS! -period-
D<
I am in the process of being a man hater..
I hate guys!
i hate them with burning passion.
How can guys like you exists?
I mean i dont want to be a hypocrite.. but hell!
dressing up like a fukcing loser..
talking like shoit.
acting like a cool aid..
oh my pants.
i will lessen your population jerks.
And i am ashamed...-i know i have no right but still- that i have guy friends like you.
GUYS IN GENERAL MAKES ME MAD AND SAD.
I hate hate hate hate hate hate hate GUYS! -period-
D<
our love lingers at 4:05 PM
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Sunday, January 10, 2010
Lost as always.
I hate to say this.
But.
nothing. never mind
it's late at night and i still need to study
but two lamers kept distracting moi.
so yeah.
anyway,
i had fun talking to Dale~
that was funny.
i find him real funny.
though whats creepy is that i do not him and he doesnt know me.
i find it creepy because i do not know. its just weird.
before i was against meeting new people and now..
blah.
but yeah. him and axel and roxas makes my day happy that is why my inspiration is quite high.
and i too is also on high.
it't just weird,
i mean its kind of awkward him saying, "i love you" and "missing you already."
i find it cute though.
i just hope he's not a pedo perv.
i'd freak out.
but anyway, he's real something. but he;s not someone i'd fall for.
its possible but for now. friendship is more important.
;D
i dont know what else to say am really thinking nothing of now.
i dont even know what i am doing .
i just like to type and that is it.
aha.
okay am done
i love my friends
yeay me!
But.
nothing. never mind
it's late at night and i still need to study
but two lamers kept distracting moi.
so yeah.
anyway,
i had fun talking to Dale~
that was funny.
i find him real funny.
though whats creepy is that i do not him and he doesnt know me.
i find it creepy because i do not know. its just weird.
before i was against meeting new people and now..
blah.
but yeah. him and axel and roxas makes my day happy that is why my inspiration is quite high.
and i too is also on high.
it't just weird,
i mean its kind of awkward him saying, "i love you" and "missing you already."
i find it cute though.
i just hope he's not a pedo perv.
i'd freak out.
but anyway, he's real something. but he;s not someone i'd fall for.
its possible but for now. friendship is more important.
;D
i dont know what else to say am really thinking nothing of now.
i dont even know what i am doing .
i just like to type and that is it.
aha.
okay am done
i love my friends
yeay me!
our love lingers at 8:23 PM
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Thursday, January 7, 2010
I Won't go breaking your heart.
Everything's been clear to me.
I love and I get hurt.
I get hurt and I love again.
It seems that my heart is never tired of getting hurt but my mind is.
I just wish for that day to come already.
I think it would be wonderful.
Yet again there would be hardships and barriers in the future.
But love is what revolves around the world.
And a person must learn how to love, for them to succeed and understand others.
Love is evil nor good.
It depends whether you act is as a good one or evil one.
What i believe is mine.
And that belief is that.
I will never break your heart, and you shall do the same for me.
Because we will meet,
fall,
cry,
laugh
and most likely,
Fall passionately in love.
In which no one can tear us apart.
So please,
Don't go breaking my heart
and I won't go breaking your heart
I love and I get hurt.
I get hurt and I love again.
It seems that my heart is never tired of getting hurt but my mind is.
I just wish for that day to come already.
I think it would be wonderful.
Yet again there would be hardships and barriers in the future.
But love is what revolves around the world.
And a person must learn how to love, for them to succeed and understand others.
Love is evil nor good.
It depends whether you act is as a good one or evil one.
What i believe is mine.
And that belief is that.
I will never break your heart, and you shall do the same for me.
Because we will meet,
fall,
cry,
laugh
and most likely,
Fall passionately in love.
In which no one can tear us apart.
So please,
Don't go breaking my heart
and I won't go breaking your heart
our love lingers at 6:42 PM
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